new expression 

so as in my job i serve lots of people & at the moment i am trying to start a new form of  saying ‘bye-bye’ … have noticed the posh people’s way of saying ‘bye-now’ but it doesn’t sit well with me ..  i say hi hun or hunni (hunni-babes if was really feeling cute) so to go with that i think i might start saying ‘see-ya’ as in see you later ! what do you say ? 

i also have realised that (due to being in a strict born again evangelical church & seeing a girl getting her bad boy who was a non christian become one at a billy graham convention n years later they are well to do good family etc .., i think as a youngster) i looked for a bad boy thinking he would be my knight ! 

it didn’t work … so now i aint doing well finding a guy … but i am only accepting good guys … this girl has raised the bar ! 

please comment or like if you read this 

see ya 😉 ♡ x. 

confession … 

… i have a secret … one that i don’t like to admit … 

i have little self belief

now whether or not it is the same or not as self confidence i am not sure … i can act all happi & cheerful in the most such as at work etc & even more importantly put on a face meeting family at get to gethers & the like

but deep down my self belief in me is so negative … all it takes is one criticism or a rejection & i fall to the floor 

i do pick my self up but that initial feeling of i am not good enough is not good

i do know i have to start looking positively (next new post to happen) but what else should i do ?

rant

i even stopped drinking so thanks babe 😂😂😂 not sure what i did wrong but to put phone down on me well thats not nice if it was just ugoing through shit or summat u would have said so so obviously i got it wrong I expected to see you tonight but hey this girlblows it again wish you well i wont message u again 😔 i do like you thought u liked me sadly i got it wrong good luck