why .. 

why do you hate yourself so much ? … that you let others treat you like crap? 

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when you hear of news

and yet you do actually understand its 

affecting your life

but it could do in the long run

how easy is it to think 

negatively 

new expression 

so as in my job i serve lots of people & at the moment i am trying to start a new form of  saying ‘bye-bye’ … have noticed the posh people’s way of saying ‘bye-now’ but it doesn’t sit well with me ..  i say hi hun or hunni (hunni-babes if was really feeling cute) so to go with that i think i might start saying ‘see-ya’ as in see you later ! what do you say ? 

i also have realised that (due to being in a strict born again evangelical church & seeing a girl getting her bad boy who was a non christian become one at a billy graham convention n years later they are well to do good family etc .., i think as a youngster) i looked for a bad boy thinking he would be my knight ! 

it didn’t work … so now i aint doing well finding a guy … but i am only accepting good guys … this girl has raised the bar ! 

please comment or like if you read this 

see ya 😉 ♡ x. 

confession … 

… i have a secret … one that i don’t like to admit … 

i have little self belief

now whether or not it is the same or not as self confidence i am not sure … i can act all happi & cheerful in the most such as at work etc & even more importantly put on a face meeting family at get to gethers & the like

but deep down my self belief in me is so negative … all it takes is one criticism or a rejection & i fall to the floor 

i do pick my self up but that initial feeling of i am not good enough is not good

i do know i have to start looking positively (next new post to happen) but what else should i do ?

rant

i even stopped drinking so thanks babe 😂😂😂 not sure what i did wrong but to put phone down on me well thats not nice if it was just ugoing through shit or summat u would have said so so obviously i got it wrong I expected to see you tonight but hey this girlblows it again wish you well i wont message u again 😔 i do like you thought u liked me sadly i got it wrong good luck