innner critic 

silence your inner critic it says … little does this article know but, i don’t have an innner critic: i have the mother  ! 

she’s never been in my corner, in fact she’s the one throwing in the towel saying i can’t do anything right !

i passed my driving test, my degree, brought four babies into the world and survived ! i work have dogs and still have the kids !  and yet all she thinks i should do is have a spotless house so i can impress any new man that i may meet !

i wouldn’t mind but it’s always what other people think that means so much to her ! take when my sister was getting married i asked her to take my youngest in his buggy to his dad in the marriage room, whilst i waiting for the bride and her bridesmaid whom was my daughter to come down the stairs, but she said no ! what will people think ?

now i must admit if she was all tartied up with a miniskirt and high heels i could understand but she looked as she was: the mother of the bride ! so in the end my youngest was pushed to my then-husband by another guest (a sort of total stranger to me)

why do people criticise others ? do they all think the world is going to act just how they want them to ? i did read once that citicism of others was a show of low self-esteem !

i have a low self-esteem but i hope i have more patience & acceptance … but my lack of it of which i know was because of being brought up to not feeling good enough EVER ! but also going through abuse: which has left me with certain traits- such as i cry and cry when criticised or feel vunerable at work ! i can’t work out how to remedy this but i do know if i concentrate of my self-worth it is easier to believe in me !

at the moment one of the things i love is comedy and i intend to start using it more and more ! the new female michael macintyre is moi … tillie flossie … on stage tonight … at the grand opera house ! and whom shall be my main character

… oh i know … the mother !!



I always wanted to go to … 

India …  

 Because it sounded exotic … But then I watched   

doesn’t seem at nice advert all the dirt & bustle 

Also I wanted to go to 


Because of the jungle (adversity of people) and beaches  in tenko


But after seeing the jungle in TV in real life seems too scary 

After childhood visitors from Australia & my love of sullivans  

Actually does anyone know what happened to kitty?? She was my fave ! 

And the many many TV & books etc I still want to … Actually my fave film  


Was set both Malaysia & Australia .. 

Make me wonder where in the world would ‘I would love to go there’ …

 In actually based on what we have seen or read ?

 Take rural France  


looks fab from my collection of French films I used to have  

 (naughty or funny) 

Even my current love for Turkey is based on one or two holiday pictures ..   

Even though when I watched this  


I swore I wouldn’t go lol
So my new love of  


Outlander makes me want to go to Scotland  


But guess what ! … I have already been there! Yes to that castle and yes I love Scotland ! 

New wish list: family holiday in lanzorote  


Romantic trip to Scotland away from everyone ! 

Trip to Turkey without kids !  


Sounds like a plan !  


You can’t have a dream come true … Without imagining it first !

More books 

Net galley ARC’s for a review .. I have to post for the lie by c.l. Taylor   


An enjoyable rollercoaster of a suspense novel with multiple twists.’ Daily Mail

‘This dark and creepy book is a must read.’ The Sun

‘A thrilling crime debut’ Woman Magazine

“An ominous atmosphere, a tense tale of past and present colliding, and a narrator whom no-one believes: this book is a delight.” Alex Marwood

‘Utterly compelling. I could not put this gripping, heart-stopping page-turner down’ Rowan Coleman

‘Twisty, dark and utterly compelling’ Lucy Diamond

‘I was gripped from start to finish. Everyone should read this book!’ Lucy Robinson

‘This fast, twisty psychological thriller has suspense on every page!’ Paula Daly

Well I just thought it was going to be a here-here 2nd book … But I was Soooo Wrong ! 

‘Gripping and terrifying’ Julie Cohen

‘One of the best books I’ve read in ages – the tension never lets up until the final pages. Page-turning suspense ratcheted up with every new scene. Sub-plots woven in effortlessly. Brilliant – my heart was racing as I drew nearer and nearer to the ending.‘ Mel Sherratt

Product Description

This was no accident…

Haunting, compelling, this psychological thriller will have you hooked. Perfect for fans of Gone Girl and Daughter.

I know your name’s not really Jane Hughes . . .

Jane Hughes has a loving partner, a job in an animal sanctuary and a tiny cottage in rural Wales. She’s happier than she’s ever been but her life is a lie. Jane Hughes does not really exist.

Five years earlier Jane and her then best friends went on holiday but what should have been the trip of a lifetime rapidly descended into a nightmare that claimed the lives of two of the women.

Jane has tried to put the past behind her but someone knows the truth about what happened. Someone who won’t stop until they’ve destroyed Jane and everything she loves . . .

and Australian secrets by Fiona McCollum  


Some secrets need to be told…

Current affairs reporter Nicola Harvey has everything – she’s part of Australian television’s A-list, has a wealthy, successful fiancé and a classy apartment in Adelaide. But appearances are deceiving and Nicola’s sensing a problem. So, when her boss sends her on an extended research trip, she’s happy to get away for some country-style relaxation. 

When Nicola arrives in the little town of Nowhere Else, nothing is as she expected: there’s no spa and all the locals are tight-lipped except the handsome stranger from the plane, who’s keen to entertain her! 

The deeper Nicola digs for a story, the more time she spends with rugged Alex and she realises coming here wasn’t a mistake. In fact, Alex may just unlock the mystery of her past. And hold the key to her future happiness…

You could taste & smell the place … I Sooo wanna go ! 

  • Nice entertainment. The vivid Australian setting was great.

… But just doing this update on my phone & although it may editing later 


mothers day … what does it really mean ?

does it mean we have pretend that everything is fine & dandy?

does it mean what ?


i tell you what it does mean

it means we have to decide that we appreciate who we have in our lives

or who we once had

they our moms or those who were in the moms role

that goes for the great dads out there too that replace a female

we have to be thankful

we have to grateful

what we don’t need to to be constantly

reminded that we need to spend money

on people to appreicate our mims

all we need do is  say

thank you !


ps btw my own mom is on holiday down under and in the last few hours has become a new nanna (9th time over 21 years not bad eh ? ) !!

reading running & red

so whilst i am here with one hand off work thought i shall organise my blog better (post surgery on my elbow from a fall )

first i shall be linking my book reviews here with goodreads am currently reading and

perhaps amazon book reviews too where i get the books i buy and of course netgalley where i get my ARCs from

i shall also be doing my fitbit diet control and running with some training to lose weight and fit into my jeans … i have found that i do 7000 steps on a lazy day so i am going to try to 25000 then go on also want to do PIYO and more when i am better
i shall also be chilling linking with my instagram twitter
and perhaps do more with my facebook page
so heres to my revamped blog of book reviews diet and exercise and a lot of chilling

cheers do epic .x.

bright side … don’t be looking at life that way .. live it !

best rules

1) don’t cry for me i had the most amazing life … smile, laugh, ”bhappi” … no crying!
2) life everyday as its your last !
3) be spontaneous … make room for fun !
4) don’t judge each other … keep your eyes on yours and your nose out of everyone else’s unless invited .. help … don’t judge !
5) dance your ass off !
6) Treat friends like family !
7) let yourself love !
8) take time to watch the sunset every once in a while … bonus points if you share it with someone you care about !
9) Do epic !


taken from bright side by kim holden

did not finish ..

anyone else not FINISH a book? … i seem to think life is far too short to read a boring book or even worse a book that has got on the bandwagon such as those after 50’s !
take one yesterday … mind you in was readding it work but having the hero meet his new gf
( i presume they will get together) but when he ws also getting a bj … did not do it for me ! i think i will leave the bikers alone to live their lives .. same of those in the s&m club whom i loved but dont need to read anymore
i do want to try the one night books but maybe in time ..

so what books am i loving the mo ? well in the middle of my paperback ( have one on the go then also read an ebook) bright side
which i love
i did love which was different but seem to think the ending was weak
i absolutely loved
and before also

i am goign to try and review more books in details as time goes by as i have a few to review but life gets in the way !!